I hate being told I don't or cant be expected to understand

In the past I have been a very angry person and could not tolerate criticism of any kind.  There are those that would say.. what do you mean in the past.. what has changed, but believe me when I say things have changed A LOT.

But I still hate being told  I cannot understand stuff .. how they heck can those saying that know? Worse than that, how do you argue/discuss it with someone when they are a few thousand miles away?  How can people say you can't understand, sometimes an outside party can see things with a greater clarity than someone on the inside.. And how can people be so certain of God's will??.. Specially since our own will can scream so loudly it can drown Him out?

I am trying not to be really irked at this whole thing, because I totally think we should be listened too and not pushed off with 'we can't expect you to understand'.


 God provides, it is one of His main things, however, he has also given us the power of a sound mind. To my way of thinking, the emotion gets the mission started but the sound mind will keep it going. That is not a tightrope I would not want to walk, but it is one that all missionairies probably do have to walk..

If the subject of this blog reads this I hope I still have a friend, as all of this springs out of my never ending concern for him and nothing else.

Do I really have anything to say that anyone wants to know?

This all started last week when I was jogging through my neighborhood.  I noticed the tiniest little nests still in place clinging to the branches of trees and it made me think how awesome creation is and how there is no way I cannot believe that there is a creator and decided I needed to say it out loud.  And now that I think of it, I have wondered how people could not believe in God for a long time, but a few days ahead of the aformentioned jog, my husband and I were watching a show about galaxies. They are not only are they numerous but so lovely for no particular reason and we were discussing God and creation.. so it really started there while I was sitting in my chair.

But now I think I really need to say that I believe in evil,  and by that I mean the Devil, the Evil One, and any other name you can think of for him.  He really wants to take God's people and bring them down and keep those who are not God's people from ever finding God.  I have found out something about someone I am very close to that makes me know the Evil One is real and acts in our lives to tear us away from finding a closeness with God and each other.  I am hurt and and angry by what I found out, but strangely not condemning..  Having said that, all the same I am going to remember something St Paul said.. test everything.. I know he was referring to faith issues, but it is really good advice