In the past I have been a very angry person and could not tolerate criticism of any kind. There are those that would say.. what do you mean in the past.. what has changed, but believe me when I say things have changed A LOT.
But I still hate being told I cannot understand stuff .. how they heck can those saying that know? Worse than that, how do you argue/discuss it with someone when they are a few thousand miles away? How can people say you can't understand, sometimes an outside party can see things with a greater clarity than someone on the inside.. And how can people be so certain of God's will??.. Specially since our own will can scream so loudly it can drown Him out?
I am trying not to be really irked at this whole thing, because I totally think we should be listened too and not pushed off with 'we can't expect you to understand'.
God provides, it is one of His main things, however, he has also given us the power of a sound mind. To my way of thinking, the emotion gets the mission started but the sound mind will keep it going. That is not a tightrope I would not want to walk, but it is one that all missionairies probably do have to walk..
If the subject of this blog reads this I hope I still have a friend, as all of this springs out of my never ending concern for him and nothing else.
